fridays letters

dont forget to link up your fridays letters with the sweet season

dear hubby, tomorrow is your birthday, im going to let you sleep in till whenever you like,  i would suggest taking advantage of this gracious act of kindness, as you wont be getting this chance very often ;)

dear matthew, i cant believe how big your getting. I love watching you grow, but in all honesty, i would love it if you said my baby forever ;)

dear weight watchers, so far i love all the changes you've made to the program since I was last on it. barcode scanner app? umm hello where was that 2 years ago? and fruits are now zero points? SCORE!

dear scale, i see you staring at me everytime i walk by. i refuse to get on you before my next weigh-in. And please when the time does come, try to be nice

dear self, you can do this. youve dont it before. it is not a DIET, it is a LIFESTYLE CHANGE. you do not have restrictions. you can eat whatever youd like, just in moderation. stock up on fruits and veggies, they are zero points!

dear green market, im excited to venture off and explore you tomorrow. im hoping that ill be able to stock up on lots of fresh fruits and veggies so I can make more homemade baby food. now im counting on you to come through because I skipped over that section in publix yesterday with the hopes that you will be cheaper and healthier. DONT let me down.


dear deal sites, please stop having such good deals. you know i have a problem. and my bank account is dwindling by the day.

dear christmas lights, cant you take yourself down and wrap yourself all up in a neat little ball? or do you think we should be rednecks this year and just let them stay up till next christmas? kidding (maybe)

dear hubs, think of the aforementioned gracious act of kindness as your birthday present, because as Ive said before, you are the hardest person to get gifts for, and since you havent given me any sort of clue as to what you want, you get nothing. :P

dear matthew, i know mommy is normally the one to give you your last feeding for the day and then put you down for the night, but now that mommy is back to doing weight watchers, that means daddy is going to be the one to do that with you on wednesday nights. i know this past week it threw you off a little, and daddy was a little overwhelmed, but this week please try to be a good boy for him.

and per usual, ill leave you with a pic

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

wednesday weigh-in

Its official. Im starting weight watchers again. Like I said on Friday, there are no more excuses. Matthew is now 7 months old and I should be back to my old weight by now. Or better yet, i should be back to my ideal weight. Ive done the weight watchers plan a few times before and I know it definitely works. And it is really all about fitting it into your own life.

I say this because, yes, Ive done the program multiple times, with multiple successful endings. But they were at different times in my life. The first time I did it I was still in college. I dont didnt cook, i ate alot of fast food, and had no time (between full time school, internship, and full time waitress) to exercise at all. So I was successful by literally eating all the frozen, SmartOnes meals for every meal of the day. Can you say sodium overload? Which in my eyes at the time, I had no problem with. I shed close to 20lbs. And was happy with how it worked, but Ill admit, I think I quit from boredom with the meals. (not the programs fault, but more of my own)

The second time I was out of college, newly engaged, and had a particular deadline (my wedding) to shed the pounds for. I think it was the goal part that motivated me this time. I also got my mom, sister, and best friend involved too, since they saw how easily I was shed the weight last time. Plus, I started exploring more on how I could be creative with the little bit of cooking I knew how to do.  In the end, I think I weighed the second lowest I had my entire life! (the first being sophomore year in high school when I was on the softball team) With a total of over 35lbs shed by my wedding day. I had accomplished my goal. I fit into a gown I only dreamed I could ever fit into. Dare I even say "I looked HOT" for my honeymoon. The same honeymoon that had an open buffet practically 24/7. The same honeymoon I came back from 5lbs heavier and hit with the holiday season of delicious delights back to back.

Ill take 100% responsibility when i say "I got LAZY." I gave up. Going back to my old ways by default. Making myself believe I was giving my self a "break" and would easily jump back on the program whenever I felt like it. Then a few weeks went by. I was embarrassed to go back to my meetings. Even though I knew damn well my leader and other members would welcome me back with open arms and encourage me to not let the past hinder me from making healthier choices now. Then a few months went by. I was back to my heavy point. And then I received the most wonderful news I could ever imagine. I was pregnant! There was a little baby growing inside of me. Out the window went any thought of a diet. I did tell myself I wouldnt become one of those "eating for two" pregnant ladies, and I didnt. But I still gained close to 30lbs by the end of my pregnancy.

I always new I would go back to Weight Watchers when I was ready. And that time has finally come. Tonight is my first meeting. 6:30pm. With my old leader. And bonus? My sis and brother-in-law are doing it with me too!

Im not going to share my actual weight here (bc what woman wants to do that? lol) but I will be sharing my progress, be it with pics or pounds ive shed. Ill share my ups, downs, and in-betweens. And hopefully by doing this I can hold myself somewhat accountable. Lets start with a before picture:

Oh and just so that I make this extremely clear, this is not a resolution. As Ive said before, I hate that word. To me, this is more a lifestyle change. A goal for me to be healthier, not only for myself, but for my son. And a goal for me to look & feel better, not only for myself, but for my husband. And for the rest of you out their who are trying to do the same, even if it is one of your resolutions, I ask for you to join with me and share your progress, challenges, and healthy tips! Good Luck to ALL of us!